Lots of you have asked how I'm going - thank you. The truthful answer is better than I was but still a long way to go but I think the light's getting brighter......
I'm now on my 6th anti-depressant and 4th medication to help me sleep but I think this combination is starting to help - especially the sleeper and maybe that's why I'm feeling a bit better just getting some quality sleep. I have been naughty and tried not to take the sleepers but regret that decision by 2am as it's too late to take them then!!
I'm still not back at work and the anxiety goes through the roof when I see anyone from work or when I go to see my GP (co-located with the hospital) but I do have strategies to do that help me get through it.
Longer term I haven't made any decisions - just concentrating on the here and now (Christmas is a big enough challenge for me at the moment).
Thank you for all your "cyber" support. My blog is a place where I feel I can be honest about how I'm doing without feeling judged.